What do you do when the waves of suffering roll in and delay your plans for the future?
This is a question I have been trying to answer since my sweet momma went home to Jesus five weeks ago today. Although, no one can ever be prepared for the pain of losing a parent, to say I have been blindsided by this unexpected fork in the road is a massive understatement.
You see, my fiancé, Jay Worley, and I have been praying, planning and preparing to marry on this day, September 8th. “Why, God? Why, now?” This was supposed to be a time for dancing, not mourning. Never in a million years would I have guessed that our plans for the future would revolve around planning a funeral instead of a wedding.
In seasons such as this, I cannot fathom doing life on earth without an unshakable trust in God and His faithfulness to do what He says He will do. This kind of faith doesn’t just “happen”. Rather, it is a priceless gift from God that He cultivates in our hearts over time. Much like a silversmith uses fire to refine and purify silver, God always uses the furnace of affliction in the lives of His children for refinement. Every single scar we bear on our fragile human hearts is a testimony to God’s desire and ability to heal.
So, where does this leave my plans, our plans to get married? Truth is, we don’t really know but what we do know is that God knows. Because He has successfully carried me through the fires of adversity in the past, I have zero doubt that He will do it again. In this time of sorrow, I can also have joy because God’s faithfulness in my life isn’t limited to just delivering me to the other side of affliction. I have every reason to believe whatever God has planned for us will be far better than anything we could ask for or imagine.
Sending peace, love, and happiness to all!